Kulsoomified

Author: Kulsoomified

  • Don’t Kill Yourself Today

    Poem source: tumble.com

    Don’t kill yourself today

    Because your Netflix trial still has a week left

    Don’t kill yourself today

    Because no one else will finish off the chicken in the fridge

    Don’t kill yourself today

    Because I know for a fact that Starbucks is releasing a new Frappuccino sometime next month

    Yes, your mother will miss you

    Yes your bully will make a sappy Facebook post about how what a wonderful person you were

    And yes

    Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem

    You know that

    You’ve known that

    Everyone and anyone has been shoving that down your throat since they first learned what the word suicide meant

    So don’t kill yourself

    Until you finish your shampoo and conditioner at the same time

    Don’t kill yourself

    Until Doctor Who is finally cancelled

    Don’t kill yourself

    Until you tell someone your best pasta recipe 

    Don’t kill yourself 

    Because I will keep coming up with reasons for you not to

    And I need you

    To hear all of them

    Don’t kill yourself

    I love you

    You’re important

    It’s a bad day

    Not a bad life

    There is more to this

    The world will keep spinning on its axis without you

    But

    Think of all the sunrises you’d miss

    I know this sounds pointless

    But when you’re sitting in front of everything deadly you own

    Revising your goodbyes

    There will be too much darkness 

    To see anything else

    But this is not about seeing anything else

    This is about turning off the lights

    This is about finding the bed instead of the noose

    This is about giving yourself one more day

    Even if it takes ten thousand of those

    One more morning’s

    Until

    “I can’t wait for tomorrow”

    This is about staying alive

    Because there’s gonna be a new Marvel movie

    No one should miss that

    This is about staying alive

    Because the future is coming 

    And it’s ready for you

    I don’ t need you to see it

    I just need you to believe you can make it 

    Until then

    – Hannah Dains

  • Opening up…

    Today I’m going to open up to you all. While thinking about this post today, I felt how difficult it is to open up or talk to about something. We have this constant thing going on in our head that, “what if people don’t understand”, ” Should I even do this?? ” , “what if I get trolled”, etc.

    Asking people to talk about their problems and experiences is easier than doing it. So I can’t ask you all to talk about such things until and unless I do it myself first.

    So here I am.

    There was a time in my life when things weren’t good. I had shifted to new school, I was not being able to adjust there, I wasn’t scoring well, I was being bullied, I was being called names, and last be not the least got backstabbed by friends, I thought I would have forever. And all these things were going on at the same time.

    I hated my life. I hated school. I hated everyone and everything. And the worst part was I had no one to share all these things with. I had no one to talk and trust to. I was scared, lonely, unsure, fragile and depressed. I used to cry at nights and go back to “school” in the mornings.

    And at a point things became so worse that I thought about killing myself. Yes I did. I was trying to look as if nothing bad has ever happened to me for the sake of my family. I didn’t want to see them hurt and suffer because of me. I thought if I will end myself, everything will become perfect again. My parents and my sibling will carry on with their lives and I’ll take all my problems and troubles with me.

    But I loved my family too much to be unsure about it. So I just observed them one day, to see if they will really be happy after I’ll be gone. I realised, they won’t. I, as if for the first time, noticed how much they love me. Everything they talk or plan about includes me. I was heartbroken. And I thought I will tolerate all those things for them. I didn’t want to hurt them no matter what.

    Few days passed, and I continued my routine. But one day I got so bullied in school that it was a last nail in the coffin for me. I tried to control my tears and did something I never thought I was capable of. I went to my class teacher and made her promise that whatever I’m going to tell her will stay between the two of us and won’t go to my parents or any other higher authorities.

    I was taking a huge risk by telling her those things but I had to either ask for help or kill myself. And no matter what I was definitely not ready to give up and let those stupid people win. I was scared while talking to her but she told me she won’t be able to help me if I didn’t be honest with her. So I spoke everything like a trained parrot. I told her how I’m getting bullied and how I thought to end my life. And after, what seemed like eternity, I felt good. I felt relived that I finally spoke up.

    We together decided to take one step at a time. Firstly I improved my grades and participated in the competitions and events. I strengthened my academic record first. And as soon as I started focusing on myself more than my problems, things automatically started to fall in place.

    Due to the competitions, I became more confident and outspoken than I was. Eventually the bullying stopped. I made few new and true friends. Sometimes people used to call me names too but I was so satisfied with myself that it stopped bothering me. But whenever it did, I took stand for myself.

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  • Real Success

    Originally written by : ©Kulsoom Abid
    Image source : YourQuote App

    We often assume that success is all about managing our professional lives efficiently. But I don’t agree with this.

    According to me, real success is managing both, your professional as well as your personal lives effectively.

    Don’t take me wrong. I’m not saying being goal-oriented is a bad thing. But being ONLY goal-oriented and neglecting your family, true friends and loved ones in the process of achieving your dreams is certainly not an ideal thing to do.

    I know sometimes this can be really difficult to do. But there is always a solution to every problem. And in this case, Time management and Discipline is the key.

    There is no gain without pain. What is the use of being on the top of your career if you don’t have people who appreciate and love you for who you truly are and to celebrate your achievements with? Instead of those who will be with you only because of your position?

    Think about it. And please let me know your views in the comment below.

    You can also suggest me some topics to write about. I would love your suggestions.

    Thank you for reading.

  • Two things my family taught me.

    ©K.@bid
    Image : YourQuote App

    In these two paragraphs, are the two most important things I have learnt from my family.

    I hope I can help inspire others by this.

    Everything will be alright one day, you just have to be positive.

    Even when it’s the hardest thing to do. But relax, in this I’m with you too.

    “Welcome to the Real World. It sucks. You’re gonna love it.” – Monica Geller (Courteney Cox), Friends.

  • So You Want To Be A Writer?

    This poem was the first thing I wrote in my diary, and now I want to share this with all of you. The poem isn’t mine but i love it, and so will you all. Hopefully.

    Henry Charles Bukowski
    was a German-American poet, novelist, and short story writer. His writing was influenced by the social, cultural, and economic ambiance of his home city of Los Angeles. 
    Born: 16 August 1920
    Died: 9 March 1994

    Image Source : wikipedia Information : wikipedia

    “If it doesn’t come bursting out of you
    in spite of everything,
    don’t do it.
    Unless it comes unasked out of your
    heart and your mind and your mouth
    and your gut,
    don’t do it.
    if you have to sit for hours
    staring at your computer screen
    or hunched over your
    typewriter
    searching for words,
    don’t do it.
    if you’re doing it for money or
    fame,
    don’t do it.
    If you’re doing it because you want
    women in your bed,
    don’t do it.
    If you have to sit there and
    rewrite it again and again,
    don’t do it.
    If it’s hard work just thinking about doing it,
    don’t do it.
    if you’re trying to write like somebody
    else,
    forget about it.

    If you have to wait for it to roar out of
    you,
    then wait patiently.
    if it never does roar out of you,
    do something else.

    If you first have to read it to your wife
    or your girlfriend or your boyfriend
    or your parents or to anybody at all,
    you’re not ready.

    Don’t be like so many writers,
    don’t be like so many thousands of
    people who call themselves writers,
    don’t be dull and boring and
    pretentious, don’t be consumed with self-
    love.
    The libraries of the world have yawned themselves to
    sleep over your kind.
    Don’t add to that.
    Don’t do it.
    Unless it comes out of
    your soul like a rocket,
    unless being still would
    drive you to madness or
    suicide or murder,
    don’t do it.
    Unless the sun inside you is
    burning your gut,
    don’t do it.

    When it is truly time,
    and if you have been chosen,
    it will do it by
    itself and it will keep on doing it
    until you die or it dies in you.

    There is no other way.

    And there never was.”

    – Henry Charles Bukowski

  • Would you believe?

    Originally written by
    ©Kulsoom Abid

    “I have never read Harry Potter. Nor have I ever watched a complete movie of Harry Potter in my life. I don’t know how to play PUBG. I have never used tiktok in my life. I don’t like others spending on me.

    I’m a girl and I don’t like shopping until and unless I use my very own money to do so.
    I don’t like going to beauty parlour.
    I don’t like going to malls.
    Pink is not my favourite color.
    I don’t know a thing about cooking.
    Rose is not my favourite flower.
    Instead I like going for long walks in the park or on the road covered with leaves in autumn.
    I like spending time with old people like grannies and grandpas.
    I love talking about space and galaxies than boys.
    I like vintage rather than sparkles.
    I believe in magic. I believe in fairytales.
    I believe dreams do come true. I love reading novels than watching movies.
    And I will choose my dad’s cooked food over any edible thing in the world, on any day of my life.
    Would you believe if I say, I trust there are girls out there who are like me too.”

    Why to live within the social norms? Why not just be who you are and do what makes you happy?

    I would love to know your thoughts about it.

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    Thank you for reading.

  • Solution To Every Problem

    When I was in class 12th, I read this line given below in my History book. These sentences were written by Abu Rayhan al–Biruni, an Iranian scholar and traveller.

    Abu Rayhan al–Biruni 
    (973 – after 1050)

    This is what I learnt from it.

    The answer to every question raised and the solution to every problem faced, is within the question itself or is somewhere near the problem. All we need to do is keep calm and try looking for it.

    Sometimes we can’t find the things that are just in front of us. There can be only two reasons for that ; either we are in hurry and we don’t care to look properly, or we keep telling ourselves that the thing cannot be here and must be somewhere else, somewhere far from here.

    Like I never knew I would come up for something to write about while reading my History book.

    Conclusion is, all we should do is Observe calmly. Whatever else we require, will be found when the right time and right question comes.

    Remember, self doubt will take you nowhere. I’m not asking you to be overconfident because that will also take you nowhere. I’m just asking you to trust yourself enough to know that you can do whatever you take charge of. And no matter how difficult the problem is, you will always find the solution if you trust yourself, observe the situation and stay calm.

    Think about it and share your thoughts with me and all of us in the comments below.

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  • Reality of Fear

    I read it on the internet two years back and this is something I want all of you to read. It helped me so much at that time, you know, when you are a complete teenager, so full of dreams, so full of life and you have this passion to achieve everything you have ever wanted to and all. And deep down you are scared of whats and buts. Fear is the only thing that will limit you and stop you from being yourself. But ones you learn to accept the worst you will be the best, you have my words on this.

    Here’s the poem.

    “You are not scared of the dark, you are scared of what’s in it.

    You are not afraid of hights, you are afraid of falling.

    You are not afraid of people around you, you are afraid of rejection.

    You are not afraid to love, you are afraid of not being loved back.

    You are not afraid of letting go, you are afraid of excepting the truth that the person is gone.

    You are not afraid of trying again, you are afraid of getting hurt for the same reason.”

    – Ezinwanne Dominion

    Now ask yourself, do all these things really matter? Can’t we overcome them and be the untamed, unedited version of yourselves? Yes sometimes we need to change for our own good but never for someone else to accept us.

    We need to learn that it’s okay to have fears, it’s okay to be imperfect, it’s absolutely okay to not be okay but what is not okay is to let you fear limit the potential in you.

    Think about it and share your thoughts in the comment.

    Thank you for reading.

  • My Guilty Pleasure

    Picture by: ©Kulsoom Abid

    Hey people, I’m a book lover!

    This is the first novel I read. The only thought in my mind was, “Novels are BORING!”… But this was my Christmas gift and I love my gifts no matter what. So there I was sitting in my room, opening the first page of this nicely coloured book. (Yes, I judged the book by it’s cover! But what do you expect from a 12year old?)

    Unexpectedly I got lost in the stories. As the tales proceeded, I laughed when the author laughed, I felt sad when he did and I even shed tears when something went bad…Was I in love? Hell yes! I was in love with reading!

    I just love how books, novels, poems and stories take me to a different world. A world that I never knew even existed.

    And since than I have never stopped reading and it has become my very own guilty pleasure.

    Tell me about the first novel you read or any guilty pleasure of yours in the comments.

    Thank you for reading.

    ©K.@bid

  • The Journey Begins

    Thanks for joining me!

    Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton

    Source: @thecraftylens
    (Instagram Page)

    I have started this Blog because it’s good to talk to people and make new friends. It’s good to know that someone out there reads what you write, understand the things you are going through and help you overcome them. Words are not just a set of alphabets, they can be a source of inspiration, they can be a helping hand to someone in need.

    No matter what, we all need friends. And the situation in which our world is right now, we all need each other. This blog is not just my blog, it’s OUR blog. Do comment, do speak up, share your experiences. You never know, maybe your words and experiences can be inspirational for many of us.

    Thank you for reading.